Anxiety SUCKS!

So much anxiety.  Between the medical issues I have, the appointments I have to remember, the calls and information I am supposed to remember, the dates and what happened, when and where things are supposed to be and all of this relies on my memory which ... is majorly intermittent and what I remember today may disappear tomorrow forever.  (I have spread sheets with information and multiple files and notes everywhere because of it... tho remembering where I put some of that is always fun.  I spend lots of time searching my for files on my computer and just as much digging in the paper files as well.  I get severe anxiety because I'm afraid I'll forget things that are really important so I set alarms and sometimes I turn them off without realizing or remember I did and that scares me and causes more anxiety.  The meds can only help so much.  I know there are those out there (who are most likely not reading any of this because honestly I don't think anyone does... which makes for a great place to vent I guess... it is a blog!).   SO... for today I am just trying to hold onto the fact that I have an appt with my orthopedic doctor to follow up on my right knee MRI and talk about how it needs replaced but need to wait about 5 to 6 more years.  At least he has set me up with a OA Unloader brace.  No way am I getting another shot tho!!!!  I get to tell him what happened with that, talk about pain, and a bruise that finally disappeared visually around Sunday but I can still feel it today.  ERG.   Anyways... gonna treat my anxiety and set my alarm and then the reminder alarm for 10 minutes after.  Between those and writing it down several times in different places and ways I should be okay and remember it.  :D