Waking up
after a long night of much needed rest.
I definitely feel better rested.
My body is for the most part in agreement with me on this. I have a couple of things I want to
accomplish for the day, nothing major, just get a trip to the local farmers
market for vegetables and then to the evil Walmart for a few other items. I decide to go see a friend first, a little company
is always a good thing these days, I tend to get quite lonely. Being a people person turned hermit is very
difficult some days.
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The mail arrives
and there is my beautiful print of a painting by Joan Marie. I’m creating a custom piece of jewelry for her, using this piece as the
focal point.
My knee is bothering me quite a bit, but I
figure it won’t be too bad, I’ve been dealing with it this long, no big
deal. SO I have myself banana for breakfast,
watch a set of videos that leave me contemplating the worlds view of the human
body. Have a light lunch of half an avocado
(small one even) a serving of cottage cheese and a few tortilla chips. I then set off on my journey to go a whopping
10.1 miles that usually takes me about 10-15 minutes to drive. I ended up driving for almost a full hour
and 19.1 miles, thank you to the sweet lady in the little red car, the guy in
the red truck, an 18 wheeler and 3 missed exits, OH … and the wonderful world
of DFW construction. I did finally get
to my friends house, we went to the markets, two of them, got lots of good
fresh veggies, then off to Walmart where I was again given a test in patience
and control.
My
confidence in humanity has been lowered today.
Tho I would like to say thank you to the random driver of a black SUV
that did give me courtesy and let me out of the parking lot of the Colleyville
Farmers market. (There are still a few
kind people out there!)
I am
fighting many emotions today tho, frustration in the pain in my knee from simply
driving and walking. But at least I have
surgery scheduled for that next Wednesday.
Hopefull y after I recover from that I will have a little better
mobility and less pain.
Frustration that I am so limited in my
physical abilities right now that my yard looks terrible and I am not able to
put the work into that I so desperately want to, I enjoy yard work, I want a
pretty yard. I instead of weeds again
and overgrown grass and untrimmed hedges etc.
Irritation in
that I am so scatter brained that I can’t focus on things that I need to do,
want to do and would even enjoy doing! I
have all these brainstorming ideas, but then I don’t get them written down and
even when I do, then there they sit, on a list, buried under all the other
things I put on some sort of a list to later be accomplished.
Then when I
have the drive and/or motivation, my head gets in the way with the pain and
lightheadedness and other crap that no one seems to be able to explain,
diagnose or treat yet. I am frustrated
in my memory, in that I have now forgotten several of the other things I wanted
to journal about. SO… guess I’m done
here.
