2015 ...

Lots of things happened in 2014 as some of you know, my 12 yr relationship and marriage ended, I spent 3 months as a guest in my own home, then had to move into a very small apartment and stuff my life into it.  Then, the last three months of the year tricked me into believing in something that wasn't... but it was a lesson I believe the universe wanted me to learn and for that I see 2015 going much differently.  I'm going to do my best to not be so damn bi-polar in my life from day to day.  I'm going to try and level out my emotions and keep them in check both positive and negative but mostly I'm taking charge of ME.  NO ONE else is making the decisions for me, I'm not going to allow anyone to steer me in a direction I don't really want totally, I'm not going to be someone I'm not to win someone's approval etc.  Damnit I am going to take the control back and be who I am.  This is me... take it or leave it.  All my life I have spent trying to please all those around me.  Today I choose to please me!   I feel liberated!  

On a side note:  I realized that the last time I did anything creative, artistic other than a few gifts for Christmas and a few sets of earrings for a vending thing in September, I have not done anything since the big D bomb was dropped.  My last finished art piece/doodle was April 20th, the next piece was started and not finished, the D bomb was dropped on the 25th of April.  I've found a LOT of things halted at that point.  Almost every aspect of my life seemed to have been stripped from me.  SO... in honor of the new me, I am going to take charge of that too and do my best to track down my muse and get some stuff created!  (Oh and re-scan (first ones the colors didn't come out right) and post all the stuff I did do up to the 24th of April.  Also I want to post the pics of the jewelry items I made as gifts etc as well.  SO... for those of you who do stay tuned in here...  if you do not see something from me soon, drop me a note and kick me in the butt!  (I'm on everyday to take care of my jewelry group so I will see it!)  Any help to get me motivated and get my mojo back is a good thing!  For now... I shall get some sleep and arise tomorrow a fresh and new woman!  (each day is a new me!)