Rough times

SO, it's Thursday, I have a visitor coming this weekend so I need to do some cleaning, mainly dusting because I live in the desert.  Gotta vacuum too and do a little pick up here and there.  It's not too bad but it's worse than normal because I have another person in the house that needs to pick up after herself and not leave things lying all over.  So as time passes it appears she just gets more comfortable and that means less likely to pick up and keep things neat.   I'm not a total neat freak by any means but I do like to have a home that is in order enough that I'm not embarrassed to have pop over guests and where if I do have guest coming I don't have to do as much.

Another issue popped up yesterday, one I can't feel I can really talk about here or to anyone because of the nature of it.  But I'm at a loss as to what to do with my feelings about the situation.  I'm not at all happy with something that my daughter decided to start doing.  I don't agree with her on how often she is doing it or how much.   I've been supportive in the past when it has been controlled and done via proper channels.   THIS was not.  I'm angry and a little scared for her.  She's an adult tho and it's not like I can ground her and it's not like I can kick her out right now.  Sometimes I just don't understand the thought process that goes on in her head.  Okay I NEVER understand it. 

She has D.I.D. and that in of itself is a difficult deal.  I don't want to have things added to that already tough situation.  I really have doubts as to the validity of some of the things she has told me too now. I want to trust her and her words.  But in the past she's pulled things and it's hard to not wonder if she is reverting back to that.    I would love to see her get more responsible for herself and her daughter and get things done that need to be done so that she can work towards having her own place at some point.

I know she plans on filing for disability but so far do not think she has started any of that.  The counseling center was supposedly going to help her with that but I'm thinking they aren't going to.  I still believe we need to focus on trying to find a therapist that specializes in DID so that we have her under proper care and not just any old therapist that just "goes with the flow" of the DID stuff.

I'm going to do some research and see what I can find in the area for docs or counselors who know DID and work with DID patients. 

My stress level has gone thru the roof in the last 24 hours and that is not helping me and my issues with my head and with wanting to snack/eat when I'm stressed out.  I need a strong appetite suppressant!  Think I'll ask my doctor for that next time I go.

Well this was a long one, guess I'll close it off for now and go make a list of what all needs to be done by Saturday.  weeeeeee   

*toodles*

Wee it's Tuesday

I do believe this morning was a continuation of one of "those" Mondays.  LOL  I ended up getting out of bed at 6:30 so that I could hit Walmart before the crowd and so that I could get home early enough for us to make a trip to the Income Division to see about getting my daughter on NM assistance.  We ended up not leaving until almost 11am, which put us there during lunch hours and so half the staff is gone.  I had one cranky kid on my hands and an even crankier grandbaby.  And we were there for quite a while so you can imagine how that went and in the end we couldn't get anything done because we need paperwork to show them for certain things.  Ugh.  Well we got it started at least.  Next time my daughter can go by herself to the office, turns out don't need me there for proof of residency evidently.  At least we all survived, the debatable part is with how much sanity left. 

It's Tuesday which means it is my bowling league night.  I hope I do well.  Hopefully I'm not as nervous this time.   I need to get to talking to my teammates more.   I just don't know what to talk about.  And they know other people so I'm kind of a loner in this.  I really want to become a "part of" it all and not feel like I'm standing on the outside.  We'll see how tonight goes.

For now I'm gonna go play some BDO I think and pass some time before I need to get ready to go.